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Thursday, 03 December 2009

  • I HATE 5/3 BANK.

    MY CHECK WENT THROUGH AFTER 3 WEEKS AND OVERDREW MY ACCOUNT.
    NOW 5/3 SAYS I HAVE -$101. IN MY ACCOUNT.
    MY CHECK BOUNCED WHICH MEANS NOT ONLY DID I GET CHARGED $148. FOR THAT,
    BUT NOW MY ONLY CREDIT CARD ISN'T GOING TO WORK AND I'LL BE CHARGED PROBABLY FORTY BUCKS BY THEM FOR THE BOUNCED CHECK TOO.

    MY OTHER BANK ACCOUNT HAS ONLY 5 DOLLARS IN IT.
    THE CREDIT CARD FROM THERE IS CHARGING ME A LATE FEE
    BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE MONEY TO PAY LAST MONTH.

    I HAVE A $200 BILL SITTING ON THE COUNTER THAT IS A MONTH LATE
    I HAD TO PUT FORBEARANCE ON MY OTHER SCHOOL LOAN BECAUSE I COULDN'T PAY IT.
    I HAVEN'T PAID MY MEDICAL BILLS.
    I HAVEN'T PAID MY LOANS.
    I HAVEN'T PAID MY CREDIT CARDS.

    I DON'T HAVE ANY FUCKING MONEY.
    I DON'T HAVE ANY HOURS AT WORK.

    HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO GET OUT OF THIS.

    THIS IS THE WORST THING EVER. I HATE MY LIFE.
    NO HAITI THIS SUMMER. NO MORE DRINKS. NO MORE COFFEE. NO MORE GAS.
    I'M SCREWED FOR LIFE.

  • ugh. i cannot help it.

    i miss him so much.

    i miss a lot about the past.

    i'm not going to do anything about it. i have been doing really good and i need to keep taking care of myself.
    but it doesn't change that i miss him. i hope he's doing okay.

    this is stupid.

    working a ton for once. still broke. overdrew my account again. fuck.

Tuesday, 24 November 2009

  • i've been goin crazy lately. so much on my mind. so much to think about and learn. i could literally write a book with all my thoughts. and i'm not upset about it.

    can't wait to be more confident with every passing day.

    so thankful for my new job. so thankful for my health. i love working out more than almost anything i think.

    had some interesting times lately. no one to share them with. who can i trust but my journal? everyone is opinionated.

    starting an amazing book and i cannot wait to read every single word. it's going to be amazing. i love it already. and i mean love. it's going have an effect on me.

    10 pounds so far!!! what a wonderful feeling every minute. literally feel lighter.

    i'm so broke. worried i won't be able to buy a single christmas gift. i do not like that feeling.

    anyway, just ranting to no one. that's what xanga's for.

Friday, 13 November 2009

  • Sometimes things are good and sometimes they suck so much.
    I still cry. I feel alone a lot. It hurts to go to bed alone.

    I've been working out everyday and eating healthy. I lost 6 pounds!!!!
    I feel really good about that. Besides that I'm sick right now I feel very healthy.

    I feel like maybe I will never be totally happy. I don't know how to.
    I know that I miss my relationship with God though. That would probably change things.

    I miss Joy. I miss good friends. I can never tell who is good for me and looking out for my best interests, and who is just using me completely. It sucks a lot and makes me feel empty. And worthless. I'm ready to be valued.

    I really miss....

Wednesday, 14 October 2009

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